Well. It has been quite a full week for me. I was lucky enough to see some old friends from Siena Heights at Alumni Weekend then spend a week with my sister. I also found out I was fat (gasp!).
I have been heavy from the time I gave birth to my son almost 17 years ago to now.
That is a lot of time to carry weight around.
But, I never realized how big I was. OK the clothes sizes should have told me - all start with a 2 or XX. And, the soreness in all my joints should have told me. All hurt when in use. I don't know if it's the weight or that each joint is just mad when I move them and require only a modicum of work. Should have known I was big when I started refusing to step on the scales at the doctor's office. Even when I refused to look at myself for any length of time in a full length mirror, I still 'didn't realize' how big I was.
No. I realized how big I was when I sat on the bed at the resort my sister and I stayed at and saw, in the full length mirrors that were the sliding closet doors, myself sitting. Or at least I thought I was sitting. My reflection held no lap. I looked like a very short squat version of myself. I thought at that time "Jabba the Hut". Wow, I thought. And all those friends at Alumni weekend told me I looked good? I do not hold them to their remarks - I actually did look good - from the neck up. Unfortunately the tables we sat at did not come up to my neck.
The day after I got back home from the week with my sister, who told me she was worried about me and my size and the health risks, I got down to business. That day would be today.
No one has ever said they were worried. That really motivated me.
I walked today already. I had a slimfast shake. That and two cans of soup are the only healthy foods in the house right now. I am going to get cruciferous vegetables, which the magazine next to me says I need to burn bottom-half fat. I am buying new walking shoes and am going to find some 'sauna shorts'. I am going to clean off the weight machine this week and unbury my jumping jogger (mini trampoline) and I am going to blog as often as I have something to tell. Good or bad. I invite you on my journey for support, for laughs. Whatever you get out of this, I invite you on my journey, to walk my miles with me.
HoOOoooola mi friend,
ReplyDeleteI do not think any one saw each other at Siena weekend with no more than love held for a long time.
I am not going to lie, I did see people's changes, but not even for a moment on the wrong side.
But getting down to business, it takes brave love to tell you to look at what you would leave behind if anything were to happen to you, and I think in that area your sister is right.
On the other hand,I think you should not just go on a diet that at the end will deplete you from things that are important for your body.
I myself started going to this nutritionist "holistic" "natural non chemical or synthetic vitamins" and just by changing what I ate, with out stopping from eating, I lost ten pound. There are foods that do not agree with you and only people that know can tell you.
Off curse like you say, I do have to get off the chair and walk, she told me that, and I always make excuses, maybe because I do not have a big drive like you.
Just know that what ever you decide to do, I am with you 100%.
People love you, even when you don't think so....