Yesterday was day 8 and I ... yep ... ate. Oh, I know I'm allowed. But I really didn't have a set plan. When things go the 'same' it's easy. Slimfast breakfast, soup for lunch and a salad with or without white meat for dinner. An apple or dried fruit if I get hungry.
Yesterday was my mom - in - law's birthday party. We were supposed to eat at 4. Hmmm. I had Slimfast later - about 9 am. Then I had some pretzels, a few chunks of pineapple and some cut vegetables to hold me over till 4 where I assumed I might eat a bit more but I wasn't prepared for... eating at 6!! I am pretty confident we were told 6 - that was the time my husband told me ... twice. But I would have bet I was told 4. Or, maybe it was be there at 4.
Nonetheless, I tried to be good. I brought a fruit tray and a fresh vegetable tray. But there were chips - the potato kind - plain. I really love those. So I had a handful ... and a half. Then and a few crackers with dip. Some mulled cider with wine. Dinner was OK - I had chicken and salad but may have gone overboard with the toppings. And of course the pudding graham cracker cake.
At home? Well, I have no one to blame but me. Ritz crackers and this amazing dip with ham and onions in cream cheese.
Today! I am proud of myself. Slimfast for breakfast. Soup for lunch. Some fruit.
I know I am going to have days when things don't go well. It helps that I have who ever is reading this for support.
I don't suppose I have it here as I have a saboteur. His other title is husband. In the last 9 months out teen has lost about 52 pounds. Stunning for a kid. And with me on the band wagon, he's on his own. So he tried to lure me yesterday at the store with popcorn chicken. And hotwings with the son. Then there was the candy. And the chips. (Not the potato plain variety). He was trying to do I don't know what. But he didn't succeed. He need only wait till the birthday dinner I guess. hahaha.
Anyway thanks for reading and being with me. I appreciate it.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
Day 7 still going
I have surprised even myself.
The feeling of needing to drop weight is still very present and not once have I thought of quiting and starting the next day again.
I have even been able to successfully eat out with friends with no guilt. Typically I would have punished myself for 'going off the diet' by staying off the diet. Funny how the mind works. But I had a sausage omelet with hash browns and the gravy on the side and NEVER felt like I was cheating. Probably because what I am following is something that is right for me. It isn't a Weight Watchers plan, though I have Progresso WW soups with the points on the side. It isn't a Slimfast plan, though I do have a shake every morning for breakfast. It's the very second thing I do. Nature comes first when you are my age. :)
It isn't all about salads, though just about every night I've had some pretty good ones that include a variety of vegetables, raisins, olives, some croutons and dressing. I have given up cheese. I don't eat a lot of meat unless it's poultry. I haven't become a vegetarian as I would still eat a nice piece of steak, but red meat isn't that healthy I guess.
My weaknesses now are not McDonald's french fries. It's dried fruit - cherries and strawberries. I probably eat more of that than I should, but it's better than the aforementioned alternative. I haven't eaten fast food it two weeks. And I have so much energy!!!
I eat an apple when I am hungry and I am sure there is someone somewhere that would tell me too much fruit is bad for you. I would disagree because I know what my choices were before.
I've been tested this week - I am a stress eater. I recognize that in myself - I don't turn to drink when i am stressed but to food. And I did very well!
Exercise has been a problem. I've only gotten in two miles walking this week - and I did do some massive cleaning and moving of things in the house. I would like to walk more. It's those times I wish i lived in town. Country roads suck to walk on.
It hasn't been easy - I am getting bored with salads so I am going to add garbanzo beans and have it for lunch instead of supper. Last night I made a Weight Watchers pasta primivera dinner and turned it upside down on my salad. It was actually pretty darn good! I am trying different things so I don't get burned out. Funny we don't get burned or bored with the things that are bad for us.
Thank you for staying with me!
The feeling of needing to drop weight is still very present and not once have I thought of quiting and starting the next day again.
I have even been able to successfully eat out with friends with no guilt. Typically I would have punished myself for 'going off the diet' by staying off the diet. Funny how the mind works. But I had a sausage omelet with hash browns and the gravy on the side and NEVER felt like I was cheating. Probably because what I am following is something that is right for me. It isn't a Weight Watchers plan, though I have Progresso WW soups with the points on the side. It isn't a Slimfast plan, though I do have a shake every morning for breakfast. It's the very second thing I do. Nature comes first when you are my age. :)
It isn't all about salads, though just about every night I've had some pretty good ones that include a variety of vegetables, raisins, olives, some croutons and dressing. I have given up cheese. I don't eat a lot of meat unless it's poultry. I haven't become a vegetarian as I would still eat a nice piece of steak, but red meat isn't that healthy I guess.
My weaknesses now are not McDonald's french fries. It's dried fruit - cherries and strawberries. I probably eat more of that than I should, but it's better than the aforementioned alternative. I haven't eaten fast food it two weeks. And I have so much energy!!!
I eat an apple when I am hungry and I am sure there is someone somewhere that would tell me too much fruit is bad for you. I would disagree because I know what my choices were before.
I've been tested this week - I am a stress eater. I recognize that in myself - I don't turn to drink when i am stressed but to food. And I did very well!
Exercise has been a problem. I've only gotten in two miles walking this week - and I did do some massive cleaning and moving of things in the house. I would like to walk more. It's those times I wish i lived in town. Country roads suck to walk on.
It hasn't been easy - I am getting bored with salads so I am going to add garbanzo beans and have it for lunch instead of supper. Last night I made a Weight Watchers pasta primivera dinner and turned it upside down on my salad. It was actually pretty darn good! I am trying different things so I don't get burned out. Funny we don't get burned or bored with the things that are bad for us.
Thank you for staying with me!
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Day One - October 9 2010.
Well. It has been quite a full week for me. I was lucky enough to see some old friends from Siena Heights at Alumni Weekend then spend a week with my sister. I also found out I was fat (gasp!).
I have been heavy from the time I gave birth to my son almost 17 years ago to now.
That is a lot of time to carry weight around.
But, I never realized how big I was. OK the clothes sizes should have told me - all start with a 2 or XX. And, the soreness in all my joints should have told me. All hurt when in use. I don't know if it's the weight or that each joint is just mad when I move them and require only a modicum of work. Should have known I was big when I started refusing to step on the scales at the doctor's office. Even when I refused to look at myself for any length of time in a full length mirror, I still 'didn't realize' how big I was.
No. I realized how big I was when I sat on the bed at the resort my sister and I stayed at and saw, in the full length mirrors that were the sliding closet doors, myself sitting. Or at least I thought I was sitting. My reflection held no lap. I looked like a very short squat version of myself. I thought at that time "Jabba the Hut". Wow, I thought. And all those friends at Alumni weekend told me I looked good? I do not hold them to their remarks - I actually did look good - from the neck up. Unfortunately the tables we sat at did not come up to my neck.
The day after I got back home from the week with my sister, who told me she was worried about me and my size and the health risks, I got down to business. That day would be today.
No one has ever said they were worried. That really motivated me.
I walked today already. I had a slimfast shake. That and two cans of soup are the only healthy foods in the house right now. I am going to get cruciferous vegetables, which the magazine next to me says I need to burn bottom-half fat. I am buying new walking shoes and am going to find some 'sauna shorts'. I am going to clean off the weight machine this week and unbury my jumping jogger (mini trampoline) and I am going to blog as often as I have something to tell. Good or bad. I invite you on my journey for support, for laughs. Whatever you get out of this, I invite you on my journey, to walk my miles with me.
I have been heavy from the time I gave birth to my son almost 17 years ago to now.
That is a lot of time to carry weight around.
But, I never realized how big I was. OK the clothes sizes should have told me - all start with a 2 or XX. And, the soreness in all my joints should have told me. All hurt when in use. I don't know if it's the weight or that each joint is just mad when I move them and require only a modicum of work. Should have known I was big when I started refusing to step on the scales at the doctor's office. Even when I refused to look at myself for any length of time in a full length mirror, I still 'didn't realize' how big I was.
No. I realized how big I was when I sat on the bed at the resort my sister and I stayed at and saw, in the full length mirrors that were the sliding closet doors, myself sitting. Or at least I thought I was sitting. My reflection held no lap. I looked like a very short squat version of myself. I thought at that time "Jabba the Hut". Wow, I thought. And all those friends at Alumni weekend told me I looked good? I do not hold them to their remarks - I actually did look good - from the neck up. Unfortunately the tables we sat at did not come up to my neck.
The day after I got back home from the week with my sister, who told me she was worried about me and my size and the health risks, I got down to business. That day would be today.
No one has ever said they were worried. That really motivated me.
I walked today already. I had a slimfast shake. That and two cans of soup are the only healthy foods in the house right now. I am going to get cruciferous vegetables, which the magazine next to me says I need to burn bottom-half fat. I am buying new walking shoes and am going to find some 'sauna shorts'. I am going to clean off the weight machine this week and unbury my jumping jogger (mini trampoline) and I am going to blog as often as I have something to tell. Good or bad. I invite you on my journey for support, for laughs. Whatever you get out of this, I invite you on my journey, to walk my miles with me.
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